That pretty much sums up my thoughts on 2009. In all seriousness though, it was a pretty busy year. Highlights of the year include:
1) We officially started our adoption
2) My grandpa passed away peacefully with my whole family at his bedside
3) My dad battled cancer, which has hopefully buried its ugly head for good!
4) After a ridiculous roller coaster ride, our agency declared bankruptsy
5) Our 13th nephew/niece was born
6) Brendan completed his Masters
7) I started mine....
8) We both started new jobs
9) A good friend of ours pointed us in a new direction ;)
10) We finally became officially waiting parents
Looking back we have nothing to complain about. 2009 wasn't all that bad, but I have a lot of hope in 2010 so I am ready to move on!
Our holidays were insanely busy with friends, family, LOTS of food, and 2 trips. Unfortunately I am having issues posting pictures of our adventures (it is no longer an option) so if anyone has any tips that would be greatly appreciated!
It's 11:45 and I am procrastinating heading to bed because I know that tomorrow I will not be waking to sweet giggles/screams and the pitter patter of little feet. Nope, tomorrow my alarm will pierce through my brain until I eventually drag my lazy butt out of bed. For some reason, I'm not quite as motivated to jump out of bed to head into the freezing cold for another day of work as I am by an adorable voice calling, "Auntie! Uncle!" This is what Christmas does to me...makes me some sort of manic cookie-baking, egg nog-drinking, internalizing grinch. I love it and feel happy and grateful for all of the gifts that I have received. And yet, I'm emotional and sad and feel like a part of me wants to hide under a rock until it is all over.
I've basically been thinking about our future children 24-7 this whole season so maybe the distraction of work tomorrow won't be so bad. If anyone has any tips on how to cope with the possibility of receiving a referral at any moment please share because I need some help! God knows this could go on for years...will I eventually be able to just pretend the adoption isn't happening or should I just check myself into the psych ward now?!
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2 comments:
Oh, I've sooo been there. I will continue to follow your journey on your blog. Hang in there, I'd love to say it gets easier, but it just doesn't. Not until that sweet babe(s) are in your arms. They are out there...either in person, or their spirits, and they are rooting you on...saying 'keep going', 'we'll be together soon'.
I wish I could say there will be a minute you get a break from thinking about adoption, but nope sorry. It just gets more obsessive, more crazy, and you become much more dependent on junk food and alcohol. Thank God I don't smoke, cuz I would have been up to 4 packs a day!!
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